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Rosie, 19, 5'8",
Obsessed runner,
Horse lover,

I'm a proud survivor of an abusive relationship, and committed to raising awareness and hope for anyone involved in one. I am always here, any time of the day or night, for anyone who is going through an abusive relationship <3

Currently not exercising as I try to raise my bf% before I go back to uni :)

"...recovery fixes your life, you just have to choose it" - Michelle K.

CHOOSE RECOVERY, CHOOSE LIFE ❤️

elmerslube:

one day, you will stop wishing you’d been the sickest. you will stop hearing sad stories of failing health and hospitalizations and treatments and feeling jealousy. you will stop pining for the illness you could have had.

one day, you will hear these stories, and you will think, ‘thank god that didn’t happen to me. thank god i am alive and well and my body is functioning again.’

hold out for that day.

— 1 day ago with 4361 notes
"Anorexia isn’t a joke. Anorexia isn’t posting pictures of girls with “thigh gaps”. Anorexia isn’t making countless text posts about how you wish you hadn’t eaten. Anorexia isn’t making hundreds of suicidal threats per month on twitter. Anorexia isn’t getting attention. Anorexia isn’t not eating. It’s funny, all the people who claim to have anorexia and saying they haven’t eaten, when truly, they’re completely full; feeding off all the attention they attract with their stunts and claims. Anorexia is an illness. Anorexia isn’t a competition of whose been in the hospital the most times. It isn’t a ticket to sympathy. It isn’t a tag on tumblr. True anorexia is a toxic, life-devouring illness. You’re starving in body but also in soul. Anorexia feeds on your heart, dreams and passion until you’re a shadow. Anorexia isn’t weighing 75 lbs. you could weigh 500 lbs and be a horrifyingly self-abusive anorexic; even more so than someone who weighs 100 lbs. It isn’t a physical condition, it’s a mental one. It’s one people don’t show; on the Internet, on their face, or in their words. It’s a haunting, consuming ILLNESS. Not a phase, fad or fashion.”
(via notoriouskweeks)
This is just too perfect."
— 2 days ago with 3695 notes

kissing is great

but wow when you get to kiss someone you have feelings for and you’ve wanted to kiss them for the longest time and you get to stroke their face and you’re so aware of their body and how nice their lips feel

(Source: ewokk, via sinewavesandmirrors)

— 5 days ago with 285882 notes
People don't understand how much an ED really takes over you life... →

recovering-please-wait:

Every single thing you do is influenced. Everything you do, there will be 100 thoughts to follow.
And example today:
Me:*emptying the dishwasher*
ED: ‘if you take out the plates one at a time, it’ll burn more calories than if you do them all at once’
‘Or maybe, do them all at once so it’s…

— 1 week ago with 274 notes
"No relationship is ever a waste of your time. If it didn’t bring you what you want, it taught you what you didn’t want."
— 2 weeks ago with 42026 notes
"There is nothing beautiful, truthful, friendly or worthwhile about it. Anorexia is destroying and heartless. A disorder without logic."
— 2 weeks ago with 19 notes
http://recoveryninja.tumblr.com/post/80616880396/the-thing-i-love-the-most-is-that-now-i-eat-things →

recoveryninja:

The thing I love the most is that now I eat things that a few months ago I feared with my life. Now I just eat things without even thinking whether I should post it as an achievement or a challenge because it is not important to me anymore. Food is food. If I want to have a strawberries & cream…

(via recoveryninja-deactivated201403)

— 3 weeks ago with 48 notes

just-a-skinny-boy:

"I can’t have an eating disorder, I’m too fa—

*GRABS YOU FIRMLY BY THE SHOULDERS*

EATING DISORDERS ARE MENTAL ILLNESSES.

MENTAL. ILLNESSES.

MENTAL. AS IN, BRAIN.

EATING DISORDERS ARE IN YOUR BRAIN.

NOT IN YOUR TUMMY OR YOUR ARMS OR YOUR THIGHS.

CUT THE BULLSHIT.

(via therunning-yogi)

— 3 weeks ago with 11870 notes
Distort{ED}

recoveryisbeautiful:

brittlelife:

tobeheal-ed:

darlingswecanbeatthis:

Gains weight: DAMN IT!
Loses weight: DAMN IT!
Maintains weight: DAMN IT!
Poor health test results: DAMN IT!
Exceptional health test results: DAMN IT!
Clothes too loose: DAMN IT!
Clothes too tight: DAMN IT!

Nothing will EVER be good enough for ED.

Don’t try to please something that will never be satisfied. 

AMEN X10000000

Most accurate post I’ve ever read.

YES

— 3 weeks ago with 1575 notes
lacigreen:

reminder that emotional abuse is just as real and just as inexcusable as physical abuse.

lacigreen:

reminder that emotional abuse is just as real and just as inexcusable as physical abuse.

(Source: mentalmentalhealth, via peanutbutterandsquats)

— 1 month ago with 32008 notes

swolizard:

My friend went on a hater rant today while on her medication and screen shotted me the results

best thing i’ve ever read and i agree 200%

— 1 month ago with 9 notes
anadhelp:

People from all walks of life can and do suffer from eating disorders. EDs do not discriminate based on gender, age, race, class, background, or sexual orientation–they are not a “teenage girl’s disease” as some stereotypes say. About 50% of all people in the US either know someone or have been personally affected by eating disorders. This disease can affect anyone. Men make up at least 15% of all people who suffer from eating disorders.

anadhelp:

People from all walks of life can and do suffer from eating disorders. EDs do not discriminate based on gender, age, race, class, background, or sexual orientation–they are not a “teenage girl’s disease” as some stereotypes say. About 50% of all people in the US either know someone or have been personally affected by eating disorders. This disease can affect anyone. Men make up at least 15% of all people who suffer from eating disorders.

(via travestyofagirl)

— 1 month ago with 1969 notes